Self acceptance has been a struggle for me most of my life, and I see it as a consistent theme within client's sessions. It is probably our shared resonance of this issue which draws these specific clients to me in the first place. The Law of Resonance, like attracts like.
I always saw myself as ugly, flawed, geeky, not cool enough, too fat, too much of everything and not enough of anything. Years of travelling and working in certain industries revolving around image and success didn't help the situation.
I even left a job once because the boss said I laughed too much. So not only was my self acceptance lacking within, but the outside world was also reflecting and pushing the button about how unacceptable I was. Even when I was laughing I was unacceptable. What an absolute crock of bullshit!
Thank goodness I found BodyTalk, as I got myself into a right state within body and mind. I created for myself a lot of illness, mental and physical through rejection of my core nature which is joyful, loving and fine just as it is, even when challenging emotions pop up. Yes, I am an emotional, passionate women that likes to ask 'Why?'.
The horses have taught me a lot about just BE-ing, allowing yourself to BE just as you are regardless of form, or emotional state. This is a powerful lesson to learn, especially when emotions arise which are painful, distressing and unwanted. To learn to sit and be with whatever is coming up, is to discover a sense of peace, presence and inner depth.
How often are we truly honest with ourselves? It is so easy to see lack of honesty in others but coming to terms with our own lack of self honesty can be very revealing. Lightworkers are renowned for being amongst the most self honest people on the planet, but does the journey ever end? Does our ego have the power to trick us into believing that we are being honest when we are really pulling the wool over our own eyes?
I was born with strong beliefs around honesty and integrity, but there are areas that I am aware of that I cower from, because I know I am lying to myself. The times I check my phone while driving after judging others for doing so. The time that I bought myself a sports bra and told myself I will start fitness bootcamp but never showed up. The little tasks and goals I set myself that don’t get done.
All of these indicate a lack of self honesty, and Honesty is the first Principle in the Master Lightworker Practitioner Course. Although I have just started studying the course, I have been a BodyTalk Practitioner for many years, and i have well and truly embarked on the process of unravelling and discovering what I AM, and most importantly what I am not.
There are a sequence of events that are laid out in the MLP course. The first steps are increasing self awareness around areas where honesty is lacking, and then connecting with spirit to ask for guidance on how to deal with this issue. Once the path of awareness in self honesty has been opened up, the next important step on the journey is to share it with others.
This is the process of true spiritual alchemy, what Carl Jung called ‘Finding the gold within the shadows’. In my personal journey I have found true power exists through reclamation, ownership and sharing that which is unpleasant and uncomfortable within.
Another integral process in exploring honesty is to ensure that we aren’t using our heightened level of awareness and honesty towards others in unwanted ways, especially when it isn’t asked for. I was recently attending a Holistic Health Wellness Festival, and was chatting to a client who is also a Healer and Lightworker. I remarked that I have been thinking of coming to see him for a session. He then he started tuning in to me and revealing a myriad of problems and issues that needing fixing, and what I needed to do to overcome them.
The whole encounter felt like an invasion of my privacy, and it actually changed my mind about booking in to see him. I am sure he was offering this from a place of good intention, but it certainly felt like my boundaries had been crossed. Just because we can, doesn't mean we should. This interaction moved me towards an inner reflection of times throughout my life that I may have done anything similar. The big learning from this was to ensure the I always move with respect and observe boundaries when speaking with honesty. What are your reflections on Honesty?
Like a bird we fly
Soaring above our troubles and earthly worries
Spreading our wings into the deep unknowing
Trusting we will be supported by the buoyancy of space
Revealed as fragile beings with gossamer wings
Daring to Live, to Dream, to Surrender
To the not knowing, the unknown, the deep rest of trust..